This statement is made by William Gidney (DC# K65760, MN# 4376, DeSoto Correctional Institution, 13617 SE Hwy. 70, Arcadia, Fl 34266-7800) in reply to a thread titled: “William Gidney, Ygraine Gidney, Rev. Borg” at churchofsatan.org. For over 5 years, my life has been blog fodder. No one has asked for evidence; everyone has rested on histrionic allegations. Occasionally, I get an unfortunate glimpse of the nonsense. Today (Sept. 2008), I saw 2004 and 2007 blogs by the mothers of my children (Ygraine and “Anonymous Female” a.k.a. “Anon”). It was very painful. In reply to their melodramatics I will touch on what is actually only a small potion and summary of very compelling evidence that should make most of you rethink your mob mentality-condemnation of me.
Anon began their flame was when she posted a 2007 message as an “update” of our family’s demise. She publicly proclaimed her motherhood of “OUR son” and rightly accused Ygraine of being “smug” about this debacle. Ygraine has often been dubbed a “media whore”, even by herself, and Anon, in effect, dubbed Ygraine and online Drama Queen. Anon alleged it was”[j]ust and update…because this has faded into distant memory…”, although she has stated in her 2004 post that my arrest and the destruction of our family had permanently scarred her. Maybe time heals all wounds-but that does not account for her revealed online obsession with our son and me. Her bold proclamation and contradictory statements impeach her.
Anon, you knew evidence that should have at least afforded you with “reasonable doubt” regarding my alleged “guilt,” even if you were exposed to allegations or impeachable “evidence” by my enemies. If you had stuck around longer, we would at least be friends and parenting our child together. Instead, you reacted to illusions and lost faith in me and our love and treated our miracle of love like something you were then ashamed but apparently now proud of; and now you trash me in public without ever allowing me to actually defend myself to you in private. Nor have you bothered to update facts to your previous post parading misdirected information, which I address below. You can post to falsely condemn me but cannot post to exonerate me in light of obvious facts?
Ygraine and Anon are not, by my choice, my enemies, and I will always have love for them actually try to remember only our happiness, which there was plenty of in 11-years with my wife and the brief period I vacationed with and later lived with Anon. I wish Ygraine would behave rationally and call a truce for the short and long-term wellbeing of our children. Her ongoing harassment lies and vitriol may cease at any time; my hope for that will not expire. It is true that I often dream of my wife and our children and that when I do, my children and I are always weeping for joy as we reunite in my dreams.
As for Anon: if she loved me even a fraction as much as I loved her (and still love her, which I discovered by my heartbreak today), she would post in my defense and tell the truth about me, us our family and corroborate many facts detailed her that she knows and that are related to my assertion of innocence. I welcome her personal contact so that we may resolve painful family issues between us. I plan to write to her soon, but will not do more than privately address these public posts of hers, unless she invites further contact. I have not and will not harass her or threaten her. Nor will I engage in a flame war. This is what I have to say at this time. I have 2 photos of our son and plan to be a part of his life in later years and will happily send Anon copies of the pics upon her request. I would love for our son to know us both on good terms, which takes us healing as friends and parents.
I have written scores of pages to our son, sent him photos of Anon and I and of my relatives and have praised Anon to him-Anon, you can verify this by contacting the attorney, David C., referenced by Ygraine. I have defended and praised you to our son and you publicly stab me in the back with lies. You cannot fathom how betrayed I feel. I wrote to your son all I could about you and your daughter and a great deal about my elder children and his cousins, aunt, uncle and grandparents. I hope you love our son as much as I do. I want him to love and know all of his family.
Anon, I dream often of you and our son. Usually I am looking for him and cannot find him and cry buckets of joy with him if I do find him in a dream. I hate those dreams, but at least I get to hold our son in them and hear him call me “Daddy” and tell me he loves me. Generally, in my dreams of you, I cry on my knees in front of you, and beg you to tell me “why” you threw our son away.
Ygraine is so often accused of being a liar that it is well-documented, related and unrelated to my conviction. I am gladdened that she has to continue to assert I am “guilty”, because obviously, her credibility is questionable and not everyone buys what she is peddling.
I will here address issues regarding my criminal case and its directly “related cases” (as much as I can in some aspects and will also address issues regarding Anon, our son and my fight for his custody. The information is convoluted in a forum like this, but all of this and a great deal more is fully documented by police, sheriff(s), prosecutorial, private investigator, social services, medical, psychological and other repots including school records, letters from neighbors and statements by relatives and sworn affidavits by defense witnesses and sworn affidavits and deposition testimony by my adversaries (wherein overt perjury and even confessions by them in my favor abound).
The “state witnesses” repeatedly and materially contradicted themselves and each other to the point of chargeable perjury. Two “state witnesses” even confessed to documented acts (including previous unrelated acts in one case) of falsifying sex abuse claims in a custody dispute. All this and much more including conclusive acts of extortion and witness tampering and other acts not detailed here by me for a specific reason unrelated to anything dealing with my character or the weight of the evidence.
GENUINE ISSUES OF MATERIAL FACT
(A) Anon posted in 2004 that I could not keep my hands off of very young girls. Yet, she admitted in 2007 she knew nothing of my so-called “antics” until “AFTER” she spoke with Ygraine “AFTER” my arrest. Which is it? Oddly, Anon claimed in 2007 that I am “definitely guilty” although she also publicly accuses Ygraine of being a liar who manipulates the minds of my older children. So, according to Anon, the word of a mind-manipulation liar and/or that liar’s word in combination with the liar’s so-called “evidence” turned Anon against me. Either Anon lived with me and personally witnessed that I could not keep my hands off of very young teen girls (which she did not because she lied) or she never saw anything of the kind and simply ate what was spoon-fed to her during a telephone conversation with Ygraine and later regurgitated Ygraine’s allegation online as a cathartic and cruel act. Anon said it was not so far-fetched to believe I could be guilty if one really “knows”me. Apparently she did not “KNOW” me at all or is just prone to lying as much as Ygraine. Apparently, I need better decision-making skills when I fall in love.
Let me start by addressing the issue of Ygraine manipulation my children: In Ygraine’s post, she refers to me once as “asshole” as if it were my name. My last contact with my son was a letter wherein he addressed his letter to “A-hole”. Now, let me tell you about some exhibits filed in various court proceedings. 2003 emails to my mother from Ygraine purport that my children were finally happy and living a normal childhood without violence and with a positive father figure and provider who my son supposedly call “dad” and that my son allegedly wanted to change his surname to the boyfriend’s after the divorce. I will not address the issues raised by Anon, nor the voluminous medical, social services, school, psychological and law enforcement evidence related to Anon’s condemnation of Ygraine for losing custody of our children.
I will say the following: My children were not living with Ygraine or any of our respective relatives or friends when those emails were sent; a residence my children suffered for 6 months. During that period, Ygraine saw them 4 hours a week. Her lover was little more than a total stranger to our children then. After I learned of the situation, 3 months into the matter, my families attempted to obtain custody and were told by authorities that they would get it. Then Ygraine made all sorts of insane accusations against them regarding larceny and other crazy stuff proven to be perjury; yet, it prevented my family from caring for my children. Ygraine boasted of her accusations in an email to my mother afterward and she and her partner hid the matter form the prosecutor and my attorney for months. Ygraine again committed perjury by testifying that our children were living with her when they were not.
When I first came to prison, my daughter wrote very loving letters to me, sent me a gift and drew a “Daddy’s Princess” self-portrait for me. In my last contact with her and my son they were very hateful and understandably hurt based on what they have been told. Yet, my daughter signed the boyfriend’s last initial for her last name and my son said he loved the boyfriend, not me. Those that knew our family know I was their hero and they were and are the center of my universe. Their spiteful words were right out of Ygraine’s emails in 2003. Just like my son’s vulgar name is right from Ygraine’s blog.
Recently, she contacted the prison alleging I was making threats or something like that, and they all feared for their lives. I demanded proof from Assistant Warden Holmes, who spoke to me on behalf of Warden Joens. None was forthcoming. Has Ygraine been telling my children that I am writing threats to her or them, too?
I can tell you also that my children did not enjoy any of the benefits after my arrest that I gave them. I provided healthcare: regular checkups, medication, surgeries, emergency care, therapy regarding the split of their parents, eye and dental care, etc. My son had after-school tutoring, they both attended a voluntary sex abuse prevention program, saw the school nurse daily, and I had them speak to police twice to report bullies assaulting them. Living with me, their grades greatly improved, they sang in a school recital, they went to various parades, holiday functions, a community picnic, on a tractor-pull hay-ride, dirt-biking and 4-wheeling, fishing, paddle boating, spent countless hours in various parks, sledding, making snowmen and much more. They also called their mother about 100 times (as my phone records prove). They were very popular and socialized. Elementary school children and their parents, as well as school officials, medical professionals, neighbors and others were ready, willing and prepared to defend me in court, impeaching Ygraine’s allegations.
In Ygrain’s blog and once on record, she said she had me arrested to protect Anon’s daughter and once claimed it was to protect our daughter and her friends. The friends of my daughter defended me when their parents naturally questioned them after my arrest. Ygraine admitted in sworn testimony that I had never harmed our daughter but has at other times made such accusations against me. My daughter’s last letter said that although she loves me, she could no longer trust me because of what she had been told I supposedly did to her half-sisters. This is a stark contrast to her original letters wherein she said she loved me and missed me and thought of me “every single day”—yes, the letters have been filed as court exhibits.
Still, in my daughter’s first letter she added that she wanted to stay with her mom. When I last spoke with her, the day before my arrest, she asked: “Dad, when can we come home?” Likewise, when Ygraine and I explained that we were splitting-up and they could not live with us both, our children CHOSE to live with me. Ygraine perjured herself when she said I offered her custody of our children when I dropped them off in FL for a brief vacation. Her daughter testified that the children were only in FL for a visit! Anon, my families, my children, everyone connected to my family or these cases know I had no intention of ever giving up my custody of my children.
It is well know that when not coerced, my children preferred to live with me and not Ygraine, and contrary to Ygraine’s various testimony, there was a custody dispute and she did not have custody of our children and never would have if she had not used sex abuse in criminal court as a means to circumvent a family court battle she would only lose. With all the allegations of child abuse, if I were disposed to discuss such facts (and I am not), I could easily prove that the only abuse against our and/or her children over many years and carious repots point to Ygraine and not to me; she even once admitted to her abuse to a female social worker who later became our son’s Behaviorist after Gerry Muriello. I cannot and will not discuss the facts regarding any such incidents, but make no mistake, I can prove my allegations.
Ygraine perjured herself again when she said she never asked me to take custody of my stepson. Actually, my eldest stepdaughter, my wife’s old friend from NY (S.D.) and my wife’s previous brother-in-law in NY (L.D.) all accused Ygraine of being a bad mother who only cared about herself and always tried to avoid caring for her own (using her daughters as babysitters, nannies and her estranged husbands), and so she changed her mind.
My eldest stepdaughter wrote a statement full of all kinds of insanity, contradiciting herself and other “state witnesses” repeatedly on key issues; she said that all she wanted was for her mother to get custody of my children…she did NOT ask that I go to jail; only that her mom get custody from me! My other stepdaughter admitted that her mother wanted custody of my children and threatened to take them away from me. In an affidavit for the restraining order, Ygraine said she had custody of our children and there was no custody dispute between us. Finally, Ygriane testified that she wanted me to go to prison for 10 years so she and not I could finish rearing our children through their high school years. Do you realize how ridiculous all this is and sounds?
Let me make a comparison: Ygraine’s first husband alleged Ygraine and I burned their son with candles, allowed cult member to beat all their children and other stuff. Never mind the fact that the children denied such to court-appointed therapist and other investigators, etc. and that there was no evidence or truth backing his claims. Now, with such allegations, one might assume that he was fighting for custody, right? Wrong—sort of. He demanded $50,000 in cash and alimony, custody of his son and continuation of his weekend visitation with his daughters. Nor did he object to the son visiting our home on opposite weekends. It was that same custody battle that Ygraine testified was the root of the original false sex abuse allegations by my stepdaughter for her father. In other words, ugly lies were used as extortion for money. In my current situation, extortion is admitted on the record even by Det. Leasher, but the goal here was custody instead of alimony and a cash payoff.
(2) Let me now list a few things Anon knew before she vanished. Ygraine told her I had sexually abused our daughter and was charged with it and would get the Death Penalty; none of that is remotely true. Anon knew that Ygraine and her partner were extorting me for a year. She knew Ygraine and her 2nd daughter and partner-in-crime were both extorting my mother, brother and that Ygraine had extorted Anon herself via email (over MY property. News flash: the PA police told me my property in Anon’s possession belonged to her! Further, 90% or more of what I owned I obtained after Ygraine left me for her lover and she is not entitled to it, as she likes to claim).
Anon knew that Ygraine and her partner left many voicemail and email messages extorting, witness tampering and harassing my brother and mother; and, in one voicemail Ygraine repeatedly said it would be “FUN” to publicly disgrace my mother for alleged involvement in a child sexual abuse case if she did not yield to extortion. In another voicemail she told my brother that if he testified at trial about his knowledge of her partner physically abusing my daughter that she would accuse him of childhood incest with “cousins” name “Brandi” and “Erica”. I believe Anon actually heard some or all of the messages. Point in fact, 8 aunts and uncle signed a statement attesting that my brother and I were NEVER raised with any such cousins! They never existed.
Anon knew that my stepdaughter had previously falsely accused YGRAINE, her older sister and me of all sexually abusing her and that she later confessed to police (and during my present case) that she had “lied”. Anon spoke with my son’s former Behaviorist, Gerry Muriello, who told her he did NOT believe the allegations against me and that Ygraine and her daughter are “a couple of actresses!” Remember Anon? She knew these things and probably more if I think hard enough—yet she says I am “definitely guilty”.
As much as I wish Anon continued to tust me implicitly, I cannot understand how she can have abanodoned at least giving the benefil of the doubt and stuck around long enough for her to know tones more documented evidence in my favor. If she had stuck by me, she would have a copy of every piece of evidence, which several large boxes.
(3) My “defense lawyer” ordered my brother to unlawfully conceal the voicemails (he also ordered my mother to conceal evidence in my favor—all of which was included in my later complaints against him to the courts and Bar). My brother instead took the evidence to the Port Saint Lucie Department (PSLPD). My lawyer was therefore forced to question Ygraine about this. Ygraine perjured herself by saying she has never made sexual-related threats against my brother and had not even contacted him. Once questioned about the police involvement, Ygraine confessed police ordered her to cease contacting, threatening and harassing my brother; but, she excused her actions by purporting my brother and mother ”stole” all of her property. Never mind the Private Investigator report and sworn testimony from Ygraine and her partner admitting Ygraine obtained virtually all of her property from me in 2002. Ygraine omitted the fact that she asked me to hold onto a table and about 100 books and the fact that my mother stored it for her a couple months after my arrest and that Ygraine was invited to pick it up, as is well documented with the storage facility. Further, my brother had not been to IN for years and had never been to NY, so how did he steal anything and warrant threats of false incest allegations?
Detective Robert Mitchell of the Osceola County Sheriff’s office told my mother and/or brother that the voicemail evidence was enough for him to ask the prosecutor to file criminal information against at least Ygraine, if not her daughter as well. Ygraine then sent an email to my mother and her own attorney boasting that no arrest would be made because my credibility was shot—irrespective of the credibility of the voicemails and my non-convict family who Ygraine and her daughter maliciously victimized. I have filed complaints with Internal Affairs and Florida Department of Law Enforcement, and nothing has ever come of it.
(B) Ygraine perjured herself by claiming her partner never made false accusations in the past and that “no authority” ever contacted us about her partner’s initial false accusations. Then, she admitted her partner had done so, but said it was all at the behest of the girl’s father as part of an “ugly” “custody battle”. The partner admitted she “lied” about sexual abuse allegations against her sister, but denied making false accusations against Ygraine and I, and perjured herself by saying she never made any allegations for her father. The partner also named Sgt. “Scott Beck” of the PSLPD as the cop she confessed to about lying about sex abuse. No authority? What about New York social services and FL cop to demonstrate a pattern of conduct? (FYI: my lawyer also refused to obtain conclusive evidence of Ygraine making false sexual abuse allegations as revenge against her first husband.).
The fact is that I could write many pages demonstrating perjury showing “State witnesses” because they did not even bother to get their stories straight on genuine issues of material fact. Their perjury impeaches all of their so-called credibility as to the entire case on every issue, both material an cumulative.
(1) E.g., my eldest daughter said I purportedly brutally beat all the children and was brazen enough to do it in front of houseguests and anyone at any time, and how she could not go to school once due to facial bruises. Yet, Ygraine admitted that in 11 years there was NEVER a single sign of ANY physical or sexual abuse by me against any of the 5 children!
(2) Another example deals specifically with the charge(s) I am convicted of. The crime(s) can be proven to not have taken place due to the date(s) of the allegation(s) testified to by my stepdaughter as prosecuted by the state and Ygriane’s own testimony, as well as medical records for said date(s), all which corroborate that I was either in the hospital of physically incapable of committing the crime(s) die to intense medicating. So, why am I in prison?
Ygraine readily testified that I can perform sexually all day and night every day-and-night; she noted this because she said it was a major issue that I was once “impotent” for “3 weeks” (about 3 months in fact) die to intense medicating and that his period, according to her was the period between 2 stints in the hospital that consisted of 11 days. So, if I was in the hospital or medicated into a stupor with physical impotence and medical records show I could hardly focus my thoughts and was physically exhausted, how could I possibly be masturbated with an erection and ejaculate as I am accused? Ygraine and the prosecutor should not be able to have it both ways!
As I recall, Ygraine threatened to divorce me if I did not get off the meds and start fucking her again; she said we were only “roommates” without sex and she did not get married to have a roommate. I pleaded that I could no longer live with our fighting and did not want her or our children to live with it anymore and “I’d rather live like a zombie than ever raise a hand to [her] again!” (“Zombie” was the term she had gently begun applying to me on medication). She said she would rather we fight than not fuck! I slacked off on the meds and the fights and sex resumed as usual.
(3) FYI, I am certain we were never physically violent in front of my children, and only a few times in front of hers, but we screamed loud enough to scare them all and I hated it. Also, Ygraine and I rarely fought in front of others.
During most of the last months we lived together, a CoS member/”state witness” lived with us. He testified there was nothing crazy or weird going on in our small 425-sq. ft. apartment. Yet, my stepdaughter testified that I was viciously beating Ygraine all the time. Ygraine testified she left me after a vicious beating. Well, not according to our roommate!
Moreover, our last fight was a public display in front of CoS’s Rev. David Harris, his date, our roommate and his date and others at a club call The Cutting Room. Ygraine raved like a madwoman, as usual. I told her in front of all there that I did not want us to fight and she should take a cab home and I would take the subway and meet her later after she had mellowed. When I got home an hour later, she was fuming and still nuts. Eventually I had had enough and shoved her to the floor telling her to stop her ranting. She started kicking at me and I kicked her in the leg 2 or 3 times. That was the whole experience and it is not so different than most our fights. I never hit her with a closed fist, though I certainly smacked her around. Now, it was wrong to shove her and kick her in the leg, but that was our only physical fight in about 6 months and it was hardly a brutal assault. If Harris and the others are honest with themselves, they will remember I tried to diffuse the situation and Ygraine was instigating it.
(4) Still, the prosecutor repeatedly suborned perjury and unlawfully concealed evidence favorable to me. E.g., Det. V. Leasher of the PSLPD admitted in sworn testimony that BOTH Ygraine and her daughter-partner were “blackmailing “me with threats involving my elder children. Det. Leasher also testified that she was “curious” and felt it was cause for “surprise” that various known facts did not support the accusations against me. Det. Leasher even asked my stepdaughter in one interview if Ygraine asked her to lie as a means of taking custody of our children from me.
The partner, when asked if she ever threatened to “harm” my children to force me to make self-incriminating statements, ADMITTED she had done so; then, the prosecutor coached and overtly led her to change her testimony! I repeatedly asked for various evidence I knew must exist, and my attorney stated in writing in one or two letter(s) was/were later listed as evidence in post-conviction litigation. (I also said we should not enter a plea without first litigating a cognizable motion to suppress based on the threats to harm my children and other threats, without seeing the report by the Private Investigator and without first obtaining various medical, law enforcement, social services school, and other records, as well as without deponing material defense witnesses. I insisted that we go to trial with such evidence—I obtained most of this evidence on my own while in prison!).
The prosecutor told the Florida Bar n writing that she did not suborn perjury or conceal evidence. Once convicted, a defendant can obtain a copy of the “prosecutor’s file.” Guess what I found in it? The evidence that supposedly did not exist and was allegedly not concealed. It included conclusive evidence that the partner REPEATEDLY threatened to physically harm my children if I did not repeat what she told me to repeat as part of her sick, extortion mind-game. She also repeatedly threatened to accuse me to Anon, CoS, media, my children, my family, etc. She also said that if I went to prison for refusing to repeat her crazy allegations that my wife’s lover would be my children’s new daddy. Yet, the state’s own evidence conclusively shows the partner stated DIFFERENT ages to me for the alleged same act on more than one occasion—she could not keep her story straight!
E.g., the partner alleged the so-called first crime happened at 3 or 4 DIFFERENT AGES. Which was it? She also made 2 different allegations that she said was a specific crime, and the prosecutor helpfully reminded her of her previous testimony to confirm with her current, totally different assertion.
(5) Ygraine wrote in an email to my mother that they all heard me say I was guilty at the plea hearing. I actually maintained my innocence and continue to. My plea is called an “Alford Plea” where the defendant says he is innocent but taking a plea because it is in his best interest. Ygraine also loves to say I “confessed” to the so—called crimes. That, too, is a lie!
I knew Ygraine and her daughter both had histories of falsifying sex abuse allegations during custodial disputes, and that did frighten me. Yet, part of me never really believed that they would go beyond threats and mind-games. Here is another example: Ygraine and I would bed some girl (women 18-45) and then she would accuse me for weeks or months of screwing our mutual lover on the side. I would start by denying her insane jealousy, then I would capitulate and say she could believe what she wanted or things like “sure” and then I’d get mad and/or emotionally worn out by arguing and just say I was screwing our lover on the side to try to end the damn badgering. That woman can kick a dead horse! She simply used that tactic and knowledge of me and my devotion to my children and altered her script.
For a year, Ygraine would threaten to take custody of our children from me with false allegations; threaten to accuse me to our children, my family, CoS, media and police. The dealings with her partner were the same. I would start with obvious truthful denials, then say “whatever you say I did I did, fine, I won’t call you a liar, I’ll confess to anything you say” and then I’d simply break down in tears and “confess” to everything I was told to while I begged for my children and I to be left alone.
It was sick and my mother told me to have ygraine arrested while I was living in IN, but I said I couldn’t put their mother in jail and as long as I had custody I could live with her sick games until she bored with them. This ended up with “confessions” to crimes that supposedly happened at one age and then the so-called same deed at a wholly different age, at times even crimes they themselves said to Party A did happen and then said to Party B did not happen. I was stupid, scared and thought it was just more of Ygrain’s mental abuse that was my lot to deal with. As for my stepdaughter, she was known to blame me for her parents’ breakup and she resented the fact that my children displaced her. She and Ygraine were also the link in a house fire threatening the safety of my children; I extinguished the blaze it led to my only domestic assault arrest when I assaulted Ygraine and was arrested after the fire and I blamed her and her 2nd daughter for the fire I put out. My stepdaughter testified that she wanted to get back at me for the fights between her mother and I but denied she was lying to do so.
(C) My elder stepdaughter, who sang in my band for 3 years, who is a CoS member, who was briefly roommates with me and our drummer in 2000 (as attested to by a CoS/”state witness) and who even bailed me out of jail and accused her mother of “destroying our family” for having me arrested, once reported to me that she had been raped at her father’s house. I took her and her mother to the Martin County Sheriff’s Office. The report I obtained after my lawyer refused to, notes 2 key points:
(i) Her dad said she was lying for Ygraine as part of a custody dispute and that she was not even at his home the weekend of the alleged crime.
(ii) The MCSO stated it was forced to close the investigation because Ygraine refused to cooperate with their investigation.
Later, as testified to by the Satanist/”state witness” my eldest stepdaughter and I had a falling out over 3 issues:
(i) Her drug abuse. Once, Ygraine and I briefly separated. I rented a 3-bedroom house for me, my drummer and my 18-year-old stepdaughter a few doors away from our bass player. I missed my wife and children and soon returned to Ygraine. Also, I absolutely could not endure watching my adult stepdaughter’s drug abuse. I do not care about recreational drinking and marijuana, but I care greatly about cocaine, mushrooms, ecstasy, etc.
It was wholly inappropriate that my longtime friends “party” with her and I begged them to stop and for her to “party” with her own peer group beyond our band. Most of the public fights Ygraine and I had revolved around her daughter’s drug use with our “friends.” My stepdaughter testified that we fell out over her drug problem and said it was because I wanted to control her life. Ygraine peripherally admitted that I quit my own band because I would o longer be a party of stepdaughter’s drug connection, because my so-called friends had “betrayed” me. Ygraine forbade me fire her daughter, so I quit my own band an decided to reform in NYC, which is what happened.
(ii)The fact that she and her now husband were rumored to have attempted a sexual assault on a female and it led to him pulling a gun and another man disarming him and pistol whipping him and putting him the Pt. St. Lucie emergency room. He also testified, as a longtime friend and former roommate, that he never saw anything abnormal between the “victims” and I and my concern seemed like the rational reactions of any father.
(D) Anon publicly accused Ygraine of losing custody of my elder children after my arrest. Without assistance of counsel, I refuse to address this issue and any of the allegations and/or evidence related to it at this time. I can and will say the Principal Richard Lloyd of Helen Griffith Elementary stated in writing at a key moment almost immediately after my arrest (without me ever saying anything but positive things regarding Ygrain to him) that my children were “jeopardized” by living with Ygraine and not –me when he wrote that my children were living with Ygraine.
Later, I released sealed court records to the media, the employers of Ygraine’s “paramour” and to Peter Gilmore of the CoS conclusively proving that, Ygraine and her lover, at least, are required to be expelled from the Church of Satan. Peter Gilmore wrote a statement on their behalf, admitting I sent him the proof He is therefore objectively part of a serious cover-up that I simply cannot presently add comment to beyond not contradicting what Anon stated and admitting the religious and/or peripheral ramifications thereto. If any member of the CoS wishes Peter would sue me for slander/libel/defamation, let me just say litigating a malicious suit by him will only embarrass him, vindicate my allegations and cost him money. Peter has proven to me he si not trustworthy or honest, but he is not stupid. (Food for thought: Peter just lied about Dr. LaVey disowning Stanton LaVey in Spin magazine this month too). I will say that my criminal case, the “injunction” case and another family court case are all material to my defense and my lawyer refused to employ such evidence to fight for me.
(1) Ygraine and her daughter had a restraining order granted against me in 2003. In June 2004, I filed simply to modify the injunction for the express good cause of protecting my elder children. I conclusively demonstrated repeated acts of material perjury, evidence from the family court issue referenced by Anon and not detailed by me here and the threats of violence against me and my children related to my criminal case. In short, Ygraine and her partner realized I put them on the hot seat regarding perjury, extortion and “violating a ‘Satanic Rule’”.
(2) Although has testified and continues to claim her life is in danger by me, she removed a restrainging order against me and continues to harass and instigate me in prison. When she claimed in her post that she cannot move on due to continuing legalities, she fails to admit she routinely instigates the cause of such legal issues.
Beyond the aforementioned false allegations of threats to DOC, she also once told Classification Office Sboto that I was court-ordered no-contact with our children. I proved her a liar by producing 3 court orders granting me contact with my children. Recently, she has moved without giving me a forwarding address and is thus in contempt of court by denying me contact with our children. I hereby give Gabrielle “Ygraine” Gidney NOTICE that she is in contempt of court and will be served accordingly just as soon as I locate her. This is not even a full list of her antics and yet she claims she will go into hiding when I am released. Is she Schizophrenic? No, she’s just a drama queen soaking up the attention in here grand feat.
(3) In February 2004, Anon, who was then 8-months pregnant with our son, posted a URL to look-up the domestic assault docket. The injunction was dismissed in September 2004. Since Anon demonstrates her zeal for collection online legal information about me, I am interested to know why she has failed to post and update material to showing the spousal abuse injunction was based on lies. Anon, you can publicly attack the father of your son; the man you called your “Master” and “God”, but you cannot publicly admit to documented judicial fact that favors my innocence claims?
In the past Ygraine and I certainly did strike EACH other, but that really had little to nothing to do with the injunction. The affidavit(s) it was based on were materially predicated upon non-existent death threasts and other such lies. E.g., Ygaine alleged she had custody of our children and that there was no custody dispute between us—obviously coached testimony to deny the obvious: I had custody of our children and there was a custody dispute and these facts constitute motive going to intent to commit perjury by filing a false report. Bingo!
Worse yet, Anon played the party line of spousal abuse and noted how my elder children were caught in the mix, then she cryptically added that there were more “children” involved than even Ygraine knew of, referencing our then unborn son. Yes, my arrest has destroyed our son’s family, but not die to any spousal or child abuse and he and certainly never was abused—I went to jail the week Anon confirmed her pregnancy! Later, Anon admitted she withheld from telling Ygraine about our son. Of course, Ygraine already knew I was planning a new family and wanted to be re-married to Anon in 2004. And, as she said, the attorney for the adoption agency contacted her, but Anon did not know that latter part because she played no role in the custody dispute that I fought for years.
I was 100% candid with Anon about how Ygraine and I fought and told her I would never allow my children or myself to repeat history. Any assertion to the contrary is a lie. You readers cannot know that for certain, but you, Anon, you know it’s the truth. Admit it and honor our love and our son.
(E) Ygraine and I in most ways actually had an amazing marriage. I am ashamed, and wish she were too, of our mutual abuse. She is often publicly called a liar, trouble-making gossip, etc. She is and was very mentally, emotionally and verbally abusive of me. Sadly, I often struck back physically. “I say she is because her letter to me in prison called me names and said I would have no contact with our children until they are adults. Not only is that violating court orders, but she implies our children only have no contact with me because she will not allow them to).
She would have you all believe she is a spousal abuse victim. She is no victim, but a participant. She has admitted to me privately that she often provoked me on purpose. She enjoyed telling various friends of ours quite publicly about how she attacked me with a club and broke my right wrist as I blocked the swing at my head and how she also once attacked me and knocked out most of once tooth on the left side of my mouth. Note I said she attacked me in both situations; she was not defending herself.
She does not tell you about her fits of insanity, screaming, name calling, smashing my music equipment and then daring me to strike her for it. She once smashed my drums while I was in another room oblivious to her rage. She came out breathing heavy, bragging of her deed and said she has just retained a private security company of the phone and if she did not call every 15-30 minutes, they would call the police and come to arrest me for beating her: beating her? I was sitting in the living room watching TV! I had not laid a hand on her at all!
I must wear the shame of striking her, sometimes frequently, depending on how much she felt like provoking and how often I was not mature enough to walk away. I sought therapy and took heavy medication to end our fights and begged her to go to marriage counseling with me and to consider medication herself. Many of our “friends” say it, some of it is documented by doctors, etc., but online where she is Belle of the Satanic Ball…she’ll pay “victim.” She is such a psychic vampire.
(1) My wife was most often neglectful, but at times also physically abusive of our children, though primarily to her 2nd daughter, whom she would even scold in front of others, including the Satanist/”state witness”, saying she’d have nothing to do with her daughter if they were not parent and child. It is not a good defense, but, I argued with and even struck Ygraine many times over the years for her poor parenting of our children and her 2nd daughter. Don’t get me wrong, she loves Disney World and fairs and carnivals, etc., but at home she is neither Mrs. Beaver nor Morticia Addams!
(2) Anon claimed she had no choice in getting pregnant and made it sound like Ygraine should know what a tyrant I supposedly am. Those lies hurt. Anon and I (as well as Ygraine and I) were in a mutually agreed upon, rewarding and open Dom-Sub relationship, but we doted on one another, were blissfully in love, planning constantly for our wedding, family and future, and made all real decisions and most casual decisions as a team.
In her 2004 post she notes my appreciation of Sadean literature, as if that is evidence of criminality! We were NOT in a sadomasochistic, but a Dom-Sum one.
I have no interest in pain at all, and only like a little mutual biting and a little spanking of my lover—hardly “sadistic”. And, as I recall, Anon owned a riding crop that she once got out of her box of toys and brought to me unsolicited as if it were religious relic and told me no one ever used it on her properly. She asked for it to be used on her properly. A little spanking, sure but no sadism, and never anything I demanded of her or coerced or compelled her to do. She has some very…extreme…sexual fetishes that I could air, but why? She was a 22-year-old woman and seemingly mentally and emotionally healthy. Her extreme sexual proclivities were no more extreme or illegal than my own and we enjoyed them together by mutual agreement. We were a team and we had a very rewarding physical love-life. I never raised my choice to her and certainly never raised my hand to her in anger and never for pleasure without overt invitation. Beyond simple lust for a beautiful girl and great lover, which she is and I did, I was quite simply in love with her on a deeper, spiritual level.
As for Sade: C’mon I am a Satanist and she is a “Goth” and Sade is basic infamous fanfare. Moreover, I studied philosophy in college, as is well known, and Sade was a philosopher! (More, below).
Prior to my birthday in 2003, Anon said if we became serious that she wanted to give me a son. On my 31st birthday, I asked Anon to marry me and have my child while on bent knee. She wept tears of joy and said she would be my wife and mother of my “son.” It was once of the most beautiful moments of my life and she pretends she had no choice and I bullied her? A few minutes afterward, she gave me a ring herself, with the Latin inscription for “Love Conquers All”, yet I’m a bully and she had no choice?
Even before the court documented our son’s name, I rightly cited it in court papers. It was a name important to Anon that that we agreed on that she has tattooed on her chest. I would ask Anon frequently if I was too lax or too domineering as her “Dom” and she always asked me to be more controlling, which implies, I certainly wasn’t denying her any of her free will; perhaps even to her chargin. Our relationship was one of traditional Satanic Dom-Sub motivation-masculine and receptive-feminine gender-roles, not about sadomasochism. Not for me, anyway.
I was her protector. Eventually, she told me that her father had sex with her for most of her life and ruled her life. She asked me to stop him from running her life. I said I wanted him out of the picture because he was obviously a pervert creep. She was afraid of him because he had allegedly threatened to challenge her in court for custody of her daughter. Her daughter is not the product of incest because she looks just like Anon’s Ex-#1. So, I simply acted as a macho-buffer and let her father know with politeness that his reign of terror was over and I was there to protect Anon.
Her daughter’s father (Ex-#1) and I got along great and I pushed us all to have open door policies for the benefit of our children. Her recent Ex-#2, she said, snuck into her home with a knife one night after she dumped him for me, after I had vacationed with her. Later, he came over to wrap up some logistical matter. I offered to throw him down the steps and stomp him around for her. She said not to, as long as he did not act up.
Again, I was very open with Anon about the mutual spousal abuse in my marriage. I told her I react violently to verbal and metal/emotional abuse and could never live like that again, and we agreed to always address issues rationally without using them as excuses to attack each other. We never had any problems in our brief time together, but were resolved to not repeat my marital history. So, how she can purport that I overrode her will or bullied her in any way or was not her protector, is beyond me.
I can hear Ygraine now:…as she usd to tell Dr. LaVey, Peter, etc., I literally saved her life from her first husband one night; but, of course, now she’d say I was Anon’s Knight initially, but would become her abuser. The fact is I have never been in another relationship even remotely like my marriage and I was completely candid with Anon about it, so Ygraine’s histrionics are paper tigers. Plus, in that extortion email to Anon from Ygraine, she boasted that Anon should ask me to verify that she always wins! I wish I could disagree.
Ygraine suggested she somehow warned Anon and provided her with evidence and yet Anon got knocked up anyway—after my arrest? Anon herself lied when she said she discovered she was pregnant after I was extradited to FL. We were specifically working on having a baby and confirmed accomplishment of that goal while I was still in PA. This is well documented. Moreover, after my extradition, she stayed a week in FL with my family and the photos of her on the beach demonstrate she was definitely “showing” at the time.
(3) Anon says she gave our son up and did not lose custody of him. That is true. Also true is that my family offered to help her on a permanent basis with a place to live, child care and finances and she initially was either going to IN or FL and was in daily contact with one or several members of my family for months. She then went to TX to be with her own mother. I told her she was free to move on romantically, even living with my family; I just asked we remain friends and parent our son as a team. She refused her romantic freedom and swore she would stand by me as her mate. Then, she abandoned our son and me.
Anon alleged in court records that she ended our relationship in FL. Her many love letters to me after her trip to FL were filed as exhibits impeaching that perjury and demonstrate other facts. Further, phone records and testimony from my family can contest that lie.
I was served suit days before our son was born. This tipped my emotional scale. A useless law clerk said my notarized power of attorney sufficed to contest the adoption and appoint my family as custodial relatives. The Texas court disagreed. I properly filed a motion for 60-day continuance for express good cause of hiring an attorney. The motion was “misfiled” or “something.” The 5th DCA in Dallas noted the record silence of the motion in its 13 page opinion, agreeing that independent fact evidence conclusively demonstrated I did file the motion on time and that no record existed of any hearing or ruling on it. I asserted that this was a Due Process violation and a new trial was required because I was denied my substantive parental right to appear at trial (though my mother and cousin did appear and were not allowed to address the court), that I was prevented from being allowed legal representation and I was denied the reasonable and meaningful ability to appoint fit, stable custodial relatives pursuant to my superior custodial claim as the birthfather. Sadly the DCA disagreed and although I continued all the way to the U.S. Supreme Court based on my love as a father, the appeal was already lost.
Ygraine said she would destroy me if I ever impregnated another woman. Job well done! She has destroyed several lives. She has her blog fodder and attention and has made our religion a circus an she still thrives on it by never ceasing to instigate me.
(F) Another exhibit filed with the criminal appellate court(s) later is a February 2003 email to me from Ygraine. In it, she rants insanely because I had just seen her in Florida and asked her for divorce papers I was suppose to sign. She accused me of playing emotional games with her and said that she had not decided she wanted us to divorce and we would only get a divorce when she wanted us to. I sent my Certificate of Completion of the divorce in INDIANA and sent it to Ygraine for filing with our divorce papers. To date we are very married.
Ygraine left me in August 2002 for her lover. We lived in Brooklyn, NYC and he lived in Kissimmee, FL, We had no link to Kissimmee except him as a fellow member of CoS clergy. Our entire FL social circle was located 2 hours and even further south. She left NYC and directly moved to Kissimmee, he left his wife and the pair moved in together. We had fought about her affair since 1999. I told her repeatedly she had my blessing to sleep with him, but no affair was permissible, because that is emotional and not just physical. Ygraine and I had several female lovers and I had many women of my own, as she and everyone else knew quite well. We had an “open marriage” and sex does not make me jealous. But, I promised never to leave her for another woman and kept my promise but she tried to hide her affair and then later ran off with her lover. She did not leave me due to allegedly learning of my so-called “antics”.
Another act of perjury is that she denied she and I slept together and had sex 5 weeks after our split. Her testimony is impeached not only by my mother, but from a neighbor as well; both attested to the fact that we slept in my mother’s room in her 1-bedroom apartment and that they could clearly hear us copulating. She did admit she spent the night with me at my mother’s home that night and that we all went out to dinner together and that she picked up her property and her pets, but that was it. The neighbor and my mother both felt that we appeared to be a very happy couple and my mother was positive we were going to reconcile. Even my landlord saw us and commented that we appeared very normal and happy together.
Ygraine testified that she did not take our children from me in NYC or in Indiana because she feared I would kill them all. Yet, all “state witnesses” testified that she spent a day alone with them in Nashville, Tennessee and a weekend alone with them in Florida—based on those safe visits, I allowed my children to visit Ygraine in Fl for summer vacation while I relocated to PA; it was during that period Ygraine learned I really wanted a divorce and was intent on a new baby sibling for our children with my fiancée and that she decided to accuse me to police. In TN, I dropped our children with my stepdaughter and son-in-law and picked them up from Ygraine. In Fl, Ygraine drove about 2 hours to return the children to me in from of my family and mate at that time. Why did she not keep them and call the police? Why did she even give me a joint in front of everyone as a gift to share with my girlfriend (since she knew I was not buying marijuana anymore myself and therefore not smoking as she and I always had)?
(G) Once, Anon and I went to pick up her daughter at the child’s dad’s home. His girlfriend showed me some old paperwork she had been sent by pseudo-Satanist name Joseph Aufricht. I explained to them all that in 1993 I had reported him the New Rochelle, NY, FBI, after I had received unsolicited material from him that promoted child pornography. Did you forget that Anon?
As to this related topic, she slyly misdirected you all with an excerpt from one of my songs. Let me say I can account for every single lyric I ever wrote, including whole lines, verses, sections fo simile, right down to single word insertions. She quoted: “Justine, just a pre-teen, thrown out to the wolves, you’re God’s sadistic wet dream. My pet, Juliette, fucking up the world without an ounce of regret.” Not a single word there exposes sex with young girls.
I love all things infamous: religion, literature, film, art, music, etc. As a philosopher, I am drawn to La Vey, Sade, Machiavelli, Nietzsche, Redbeard Rand and like great thinkers. Sade is known generally as a pervert. He was a “Shock Rocker” of his era in literature. He was a playwright, novelist, etc. He wrote what are known as “Dialogues” (as in Plato’s Dialogues or novels by Rand, etc.) Two of his books are “Justine” and “Juliette”. A scholar once wrote that Justine represented the pious, Christian female victim of Sade’s era and Juliette was his model of future feminism.
They were orphaned when Justine was 12 and Juliette 15. Their stories occur over many years. They were cheated of their inheritance and thrown out to the wolves of Social Darwinist society. Justine was perpetually victimized. Juliette was a wealthy extortionist, murderess, rapist, participant in “black masses” etc. At some point, Justine was a sex-slave in a monastery, which is why I dubbed her “God’s sadistic wet dream.” Juliette was a confederate of her sister’s captors. Justine dies. Juliette triumphs.
Sade was not promoting criminality. He was commenting in an inflammatory artistic form on the Satanic fact that the world is Darwinian and accusing the Christian patriarchal social power-structure of being a ruthless victimizer of women, but prophesied that one day women would be socially equal to men…not in virtue, but in matters of depravity for self-gain and self-satisfaction. Not only did I summarize their stories in that verse, but I threw in a joke! I invoked the term “sadistic” derived from Sade’s own name. That is called “sardonic” or “dark” or “black” or “Satanic humor.” I slipped in dark jokes in many of my “questionable lyrics.” I love to laugh at stupidity and purposely misdirect people. Remember “misdirection” from the writings of LaVey and Machiavelli?
Moreover, I was a professional SHOCK ROCK artist! I was intentionally writing inflammatory similes. Most of my lyrics had no sexual connotations at all, although some had very specifically charged sexual content. I took most heat and my band caused more problems at gigs as a result of my song “Seig Heil”, more so than from any other song I ever wrote. At first, we even incorporated the Nazi salute at shows. We then parodied it with the left arm and the Sign of the Horns. Lyrically, it is a scathing attack against “herd mentalism,” but on the surface, it is taken as overt Nazi promotion, which is it not.
BTW: I never wrote lyrics about Justine or Lolita or anything like that until AFTER Ygraine brought home an unsolicited copy of “Lolita” for me to read as part of my general literary education of all things notorious. In the foreword, the editor noted Sting’s song “Don’t Stand So Close to Me.” I thought that was awesome. I was heavily influenced by the literary and film lyrics Led Zepplin and Rob Zombie, and there was evidence of a Rock song being taken seriously as a literary effort. Did I decide to build a better mousetrap? Did I push the envelope? You bet I did. When I sang about the “Trench Coat Mafia”, was I promoting it? No.
Ygraine cited the following verse to authorities: “Tied up, spread out, on four posts, you little girl, the one I love the most.” Many people saw our shows. Many people have seen our live photos and footage. They saw the mid 30’s Betty Page tied to four posts on the bass drum! They saw that same picture on a shirt I wore at shows and other Betty shirts worn by me and other band members! I wrote a song about Betty page specifically! Betty Page, who was a model from age 30-37, was the female icon I extolled as a Shock Rocker! Very curvy. Very Dark. See Zeena LaVey’s reference to her foreword of “The Satanic Witch.” See Coop’s drawing of her on the devil’s tie on his Church of Satan recruitment poster. But, sure fell free to quote excerpts of my lyrics and pervert them to fit your own twisted theories. I know why I wrote what I did and it had nothing to do with pedophilia. You are supposed to be literate Satanists—are these iconic references so elusive to? Do you have no sense of humor and are you so gullible?
(H) I insisted Anon agree that we would each put the wellbeing of our respected children before our romantic relationship. I made it clear she ranked below my children and I demanded she rank me below her daughter, because I was not about to be trapped by romantic love and union for another decade of my family’s life and felt she should feel equally protective of her own interests. She was very thankful for my experience as a husband and father and said she felt she finally had real support as a woman, mother and mate. She knows these things are true.
(I) Inept jailhouse lawyers and inmate law clerks botched my initial post-conviction litigation. By the time I properly filed my pro se motion for relief based on prejudicial ineffective counsel and the record evidence, I was procedurally time-barred by 10 days.
(J) FYI: I almost never called Anon by her legal name, but by her “Goth Name.” Ygraine’s legal name is common knowledge, and I usually referred to her by her well-known “Craft Name.” I will not use Anon’s real name or Goth Name here as a matter of respect. I only once note her Ygraine’s legal name as a matter of law. They may like to sling mud, but I do not. Perhaps they can let any man put a baby in them, but I actually loved them and wanted them to mother my children. It is not my wish to fight with the mothers of my children. With all the bitterness between us, I just want peace. We owe it to ourselves, to each other and most certainly to our children.
(K) Ygraine smugly lampooned Anon and I as online relationship. Anon and I did spend some months on the phone and chatting online. I spent a week vacationing with her before I moved in with her. I had planned to move back to FL, but was in love with a flesh and blood woman whom I had held in my arms. Let me note that Ygraine and her lover ARE an online relationship! The “met” online and she met him IRL only a handful of time in my presence and that did not add up to the time I spent vacationing with Anon and they lacked the “intimacy” Anon and I enjoyed. All they had was a long-term online and phone affair that was a problem in my marriage. In 2002, they had a rendezvous and a week or so later, she left me. SO, Ygraine had even less real-world romance with her lover than Anon and I did with each other.
Further, Ygraine moved her online lover in with her and her daughter who was supposedly sexually abused, and yet she publicly rebukes Anon as a bad mother regarding our living situation! The fact is that Anon had spoken with my children on the phone and knew personally from those conversations just how happy my children were and how much we loved each other. At least Anon had good reason to trust me via such contact. As for Ygraine’s lover, he was a nearly 40-year old beer drunk with no children, and thus lacked the heart and soul of a father. Ygraine is such a liar and hypocrite.
(L) Ygraine testified that her lover had threatened to kill me if I ever came near her and not related to my alleged “antics.” Yet, she spent the night with me in Indiana and saw me in TN and FL, too. I usually spoke with her when our children called her. She often called me without intent to even talk to our children. Once, when she called to chat, I asked if she wanted to speak with the kids. She became angry and accused me of implying she was a bad mother because she did not want to speak to our children. That same day her lover emailed—me tough guy online. He said if I bothered her again he would make me get on my knees and put 2 guns in my mouth and make me suck them. (Ygraine’s first husband was a telephone tough guy—then I “fixed his little red wagon”).
Ygraine told me that her lover was afraid of me and knew he could not take me in a fight and would just shoot me. She also complained to me that her boyfriend is “too clingy.” For myriad reasons I am positive he has a “mommy complex.” Ygraine may complain publicly for attention, but she loves a macho man and told our friends countless times she could never “love” or “respect a man [she] could beat up!” She likes to pick fights and then likes to get smacked around and then like to make-up as a lifestyle; I don’t.
(M) For those who threaten my safety regarding this nonsense: I want to be left alone and want peace and I have no vendetta against any party. I just want my life back and to reunite with my elder children and to unite with my youngest son. I am no threat to anyone. Yet, Ygraine has seen what my fists can do to another man, has seen bigger men than I and even groups of man cower before me and she can attest that I am king of the mountain and you better work hard if you want to knock me off the peak. Leave me in peace and I’ll leave you in peace. You can all blog theories about “might is right”—I’ll demonstrate it in practice. Don’t try to hurt me and I will not hurt you. It is a basic social contract we can all agree to.
